brown

Everyday we drink tea, resting the tea cups on round jute coasters on a large brown wood coffee table with an even larger brown tinted glass surface.

The tint makes the newspapers below look 30 years old- as if they were fished out from our storage room, but of course they bear today’s day and date- neat and crisp.

The rusk often drips into the tea as we stare into our respective screens on quiet mornings of days’ that we know entail toil. The unuttered desperation for rest adds to the silence, broken periodically by the stunted cries of stunted sparrows. The sparrrows are smaller than they used to be 20 years ago. Their plumage pathetic now, dirt-like instead of the browns that we have preserved in our eyes.

A three-some of green parrots show up at the window near the dining table, overlooking the cemetery. Always in threes, and always silent for the fear of attracting a predator who’d claw them down.

Only once have I sighted a large hawk in our skies, gawking over the cemetery as if it was its land. How would I explain to it that that land is disputed property…

-Tanmay

who the fuck put a dead snake on my plate?!

The snake opened its wide sharp knife laden mouth, the orifice big enough to consume my-self entirely, I entered with a certain risk, a kid in the background yelled “Basilisk”,

“Ah shut up, I want this journey”.

The snake’s body lay open for me to inspect, the scales absent inside, a hollow rib and an elongated gut, put up lights at the top and it’s no different than the tunnel I drive through everyday for work. Could smell the reek of venom and a dead rat, somewhere deeper I could encounter its death, not mine, I plan to live longer.

The body seemed to coil inwards, dead snakes writhe for a while, no problem; I could just shrink further and go on, as I said I wanted this journey.

The mucus on the walls signaled directions further into the belly to the bag of gold, yes there was gold and other treasures at the end, you could say the dragon had eaten the treasure it was supposed to guard, only the dragon here is a snake.

Ten steps further I found some gold coins strewn on the floor, I kept on walking, and walking and walking…

-Tanmay

self portraiture in hell

rough sandpaper

against my cheek,

she hummed her tale of yesteryear’s glory

and I focused on the roughness against my portrait

what if it were to leave a stain?

what if I were to be a branded man?

a marked man

taken to the gallows

for not listening to the glory of a woman

glory of fire, blood and tears in a holy mix-

injected intravenous,

with Stairway to Heaven playing in the background

I never liked that song though

would have rather listened to the cat and monkey screeching at each other

and with her tale unheard still,

she slapped me hard

and I saw stars for a moment

and then she got up and left

and so did the monkey

naturally I named the cat Persephone.

-Tanmay

waste I

colossal waste

everywhere

dirty gritty wet waste

a bud from an expensive cigarette, a can of cheap beer, a rancid half eaten apple

oh such treasures

thrown away

into streets of ignorance with thwarting eyes

until a mountain erupts

showing off beautifully

the carcasses of a million yesterdays,

a million yesterdays of despair and

sadness shoved down to our gut

and then shed and then recycled and then shoved down again

debilitating

destructing…

(To be continued)

-Tanmay